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it’s actually beyound a joke now, and it’s pissing me off more than it ever has. it’s always been the one thing. he’s where he belongs with the name that belongs. Cody is his dad and I am his mum, and we gave him that name. noone can take that away from us. so stop. just stop.

for once, I’m actually so happy with the way things are, and are going right now. yesterday, the monster that destroyed my boyfriend’s life pleaded guilty and is now going to jail where he belongs, which is the biggest relief the both of us could ever ask for, after everything. these last two years have been crazy, and now we can finally move past it. tomorrow he returns home to me, with our baby (dog), Bronson who I haven’t seen in over 4 months. I completed my assessment tonight to begin my Education Support course, so that I can do Teacher Aide work in primary schools. I’m slowly getting more confident with my driving, and hopefully having a driving lesson on Friday, which Im nervous as hell about, but also excited. I got a small, but benefical pay rise at work, which helps support the so many things I’m saving for. Including a car, a week holiday and moving out next year. Moving out next year, if all goes to plan, is going to be so so great. There are MANY kinks still to be worked out, but I am so excited. Leaving my mother, again, will tear me apart. But it will be my year, I wont let myself down again. I’m prepared to sacrifce so much to work and study my ass off this year, to hopefully move on to better things next year. Being able to be closer to friends and have some sort of social life compared to now, work, oppurtunitys and be able to do the Veterinary Nurse traineeship I’ve been longing to do. But because I’m an hour away from any surgery right now, its a hassle. I’m so excited. I’m finally smiling at the fact that I have some sort of idea where I want to be, things are finally looking up.

I dont care if anyone didnt want this on their dash, I can finally start to see my happiness and nothing else matters now.

  • 12th graders: ew 11th graders
  • 11th graders: ew 10th graders
  • 10th graders: ew 9th graders
  • 9th graders: ew middle schoolers
  • middle schoolers: ew elementary kids
  • elementary kids: ew babies
  • babies: ew fetus
  • fetus: ew wait how am i talking

4ristocats:

psych-tic:

sp4ghetti:

I miss the old me, the me that was always laughing and smiling. Always being super positive, to the point that it pissed my best friend off.

Now i just want to kill myself, all the time. 

And it’s not like I have a reason to be depressed, but it’s really hard to be happy when you hate yourself this much.

-sigh- :c

(Source: newp-rt, via 4ristocats)